Learning to Think Differently

Hello!

I would like to thank all the people for the helpful tugs across this bumpy road.

I have been so grateful that there are people out there that can help me through this. I got to keep my son today, and he is keeping me on my toes.

A new life can't be built in a day. I must take it slowly and one day at a time. I need to take baby steps now. I have to learn to think differently. I need to get used to sober thinking instead of alcoholic thinking. Most of us know, that has tried this before, that the old alcoholic thinking is apt to come back on us when we least expect it. This new way of life is a slow process, but I know it can be done.I am building a new life starting off with my foundation of sobriety. On this foundation of sobriety, I can build up to a life of honesty, unselfishness, and faith in my HP, and love others.

I may never fully reach these goals, but the adventure of building this kind of life will be fun and tough. I believe that it has to be better than the up and down of my old drinking life. There will be no comparison. This blog and the friends I have made here is my way of getting sober, but I believe that in time my readers and tuggers will show me a new aspect on life and a new way of living. I have become honest with myself and to all my readers.

I pray daily for faith, for it is God's gift to me. God gives this to me in my prayers, because it is a necessary weapon for me to have. I need this so I can overcome all the adverse conditions, and the accomplishment of everything good in my life. Therefore I will have to work hard to strengthen my faith, but with the help of my HP this will be easier to do.

Thanks for tugging on my wagon over these hills. Keep the tugs coming.

Bunch of Chicken Shit!

Hello!

Well I went and filled out all of the proper paperwork I needed to get the JOB process going today.

I have been having some bad thoughts lately because I am letting other people's comments get to me. I know I shouldn't but I have a hard time keeping my opinion not heard. I have a certain commenter on another site that is always criticizing me. I don't really care what he thinks, but the whole world can see what he says. I have to be able to take the good and bad criticism. I just have a hard time with the bad , but it does motivate me to keep my head held high . So that I can prove them all wrong.

One comment this person said was that my wife needed to get my children away from me. He heard the song Alyssa Lies on the radio and he said that he thought it reminded him of my children. He is so off key he don't even know what that song is about. I would never do any of those things to my children. I have to say with my head hung in shame that I have probably caused emotional or mental abuse, but never on purpose. I have only done this in my drunken state of mind.

I have a Mother in law that is also very critical of me. For instance today when I went and done my paperwork she said " He will only work a couple of months then he will fail." She is just looking out for her daughter I guess. She is very hard hearted, and I have done wrong to her daughter and grandkids. I am trying to do better for myself and no one else so who cares what every one else thinks. My mother in law is married to an alcoholic just like me, but I don't think we are the same. I have heard some stories on him that I don't think I would do, but we both do liked to drink. She fusses at me about my problem, but it is just fine and dandy that he drinks. He is a morning time drinker and has his own little get away spot. He does not drink in front of her so I guess you could say he is a closed door drinker. When he has had his fill he goes inside to a good hot home cooked meal watches a little T.V. Then he goes and takes a nap to sleep it off.


Well I am done ranting about others. I had a good day today. I played with my young'ns and we did some more dancing. This is kinda good exercise doing all the dances over and over. We all look silly I would say , but we have one hell of a good time. I think my age is catching up with me or I am just out of shape 'cause after two dances I was breathing heavy and sweating. I didn't know that I was in that bad of shape.

Thanks for listening to my rage as I yelled it from my wagon - keep on tugging, it helps.

Sometimes You Just Have to Laugh at Yourself

You Are Bud Light

You're not fussy when it comes to beer. If someone hands it to you, you'll drink it. In fact, you don't understand beer snobbery at all. It all tastes the same once you're drunk! You're an enthusiastic drinker, and you can often be found at your neighborhood bar. You're pretty good at holding your liquor too - you've had lots of experience.

What's Your Beer Personality?

Coincidentally -- Guess what my favorite beer / beer of choice was? Eerily enough this pretty much describes me when I was drinking my beer of choice.